I just don't know why. It hurts so bad like being stabbed with a knife over and over and over again. It's like a papercut, you don't feel the pain till you see it. I just feel stoned till I think about it. Not much difference anyway. It's just like hitting your funny bone against the chair, it sends a hell of a stinging excruciating pain through your nerves.
Fuckkkkkkkkkk. I'm so sorry I can't mind my language today. I feel like I've got only one day left to live, and the best cure to it would most probably be to die, right now. I really don't know what nonsense am I blaberring. I just can't think right anyway, not now. Why do I always cry even if it's just picturing you walking away? I wish I knew how to react to situations like this appropriately, but I just don't know how..especially when it comes to you I also wish my mum knew exactly where and when to leave me alone.